Love of beauty

There are things that I don’t understand. Like I don’t understand why I am on the train, going away from you. I don’t want to be away from you, and I mean this. But strangely this depart is my choice alone.

I don’t understand myself sometimes. Or I should say all the times.

I love you, yes I do and do and do. But I can’t stand this love. I’m not someone who is accustomed to love someone, not someone who is born to love. That is my theory, you can defer if you want.

You do love me more than I love you. I think you know that too. Although others see me as the active one in our relationship, but the truth, I’m really passive. I never am the one who start the kissing. I don’t hug you unless you hug me first. That is really weird, isn’t it?

It is weird. It is so weird that I don’t understand. I mean I am meaning to be the one who is in love with you. I mean to be the one who is falling for you. I mean I told you I love you, haven’t I?

Yes, I told you so many times and I do and I do and I do love you.

But I don’t want this love. Not knowing why, just can’t stand it. This love will break me so much – you as well. This love kills.

So I go and never come back. Thinking this will be a better idea, much safer.

A coward’s ideal it is. I’ve always been a silly coward, maybe no one saw.

Really, I am way tired. Don’t know why still writing about this. Don’t know why I still love you. I love you. Do I?

Oh yes I do, more than you know, more than I know. I love you. There is nothing I want to do but run away from your beauty, your love.

I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. Let me break.

TOTAL RELEASE!!!!!!

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Nya has been sooooo art flown lately. Drawing crazy >w< don’t get da wrong idea. Nya draws a lot does not mean nya draw awesome. No indeed.
KK has a new nickname……well, grannie gave me this nickname since I was the age of 5hours but now kiDChan calls me that too. It makes me ultra-happy since I really really LOVE her. TT.TT really mean it, nya. I’m like really like her a LOT! kiDChan sama ne???????? meimei-chan also LOVES u tons!!!!!!!!

OK, nya dreamt yesterday that I’m continuously escaping from being captured by a certain evil with another passive boy. Nya had a LONG journey and many adventures and finally settled down in an underground sewage system with internet connected to DA. o_O nya must have gone on DA tooooooo much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All’s well everyone that’s all for today, really nyaness FOREVER!

Love ya lots! btw plz check out kiDChan’s gallery on http://kidchan.deviantart.com Guaranteed awesomeness!

~MYA @w@

nya i start....>w< oh mai gosh!!!!!!!!!!

SHAKKO!!!! Nyalalalal!!!!! Hiya world!!!!!!!! *w*

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OK OK, let me begin my new life as a blogger!

I intend to let this little blog world filled wif a randomness. Ehe… reading about a eccentric world. So if ya still intend to stay and read I shall begin by saying if ya read more ya will get to read stuffs written in SUBSTANDARD English, much to my English teacher’s dismal ne? All my enters will be about my weird and wonderful dreamlike life. All about da crazy dreams I have when I sleep and ones I have during the day. U JUST WANNA STAY AND READ NE? XD yeah… ><;;;;

Coz today I don’t have much to say, I shall stop here. Hopefully next time I’ll get more NYANESS for ya! Ja ne?!!

~ MYA @w@